The dreaded phone call. Texas.

Tuesday, April 2nd, 2013

Paragraphs of Daily Thoughts, some Mental Therapy and some reviews of our “well seasoned” Gear and Services we utilize. Published Weekly or so.

“You can’t escape Karma … It is what it is. It doesn’t judge, it’s neither good nor bad like most people think. It’s the result of all the actions, positive and negative–a constant balancing act of events–cause and effect–tit for tat–reaping and sowing–what goes around comes around … However you phrase it, it’s the same in the end.”
~ Alyson Noel ~

Cloud-5 xxx

It is with a heavy Heart that I write this. My Mother in Munich suffered a severe massive stroke yesterday, now paralyzed, unconscious and on Life support. My Dear Mother. My Friend throughout these years always only a phone call away. Luckily for all of us as my Uncle and Aunt will join me from Belgium, it happened right outside her apartment. There is no Poetry in all of this while trying to stay afloat. Spirit is well situated and I will be in Munich for a couple weeks. Having no “living will” I am the one “they are waiting for” while my last Friend … This World is already feeling so empty, the lessons learned these past years are so difficult to put in motion. Confused, this is all I can write. What is below was already on this page and will leave it at that. How amazing that I had written such words before the dreaded phone call. How staggering that in this Desert today the dark clouds have moved in with lightning, thunder and much rain as a sign from above. Please wait for me.

Flowers on Old Ore Road-2 xxx

I don’t hesitate spilling my Soul’s contents on these pages. They are mine, it is my channel of sounds and colors, feelings, they are who I am, they made me who I am today and it is truly a "good thing". They are the moments encountered lately with a bright sunshine and a full Moon keeping the spirits and all contents elevated as a deserved prize throughout these years of struggle, of learned lessons and emotional Journey. So aware they will never be over, yet, the peaks are enjoyed and past chapters applied to. Keeping thoughts mirrored into my Life without inscribing them in words is difficult for me even if not adventuring myself into the very personal aspect which will always remain as such out of respect for others involved on my path.

Cactus-2 xxx

The winds have shifted. The temperatures have dropped on the outside, yet deep inside they have risen warming up my Heart and all surroundings. "Sharing" Life these days has become as a new stage, a canvas filled with hope erasing images of an old Soul and his Dog all alone with and at times against the elements. Another step up. It all feels new somehow and all at the same time so old as two Souls on a similar Journey encountering each other for over all these past years with familiar thoughts of a heightened present. Life is going on with a flow all familiar and unfamiliar blending in together creating as always hope and the fruit of a faith facing a wrapped gift willing to be so gently unwrapped.

Flowers in the Desert-2 xxx

I heard the saying the other day which made me smile "There is a lid for every jar". Could it really be true? So much has unwound which had so many doubts, even more was in total darkness, a tunnel I remember with not even a trace of daylight. There, were the beginnings of this Journey, this new lease on Life with not even a crumb of faith, the path was wide open and yet there were no directions only filled with adventures I gave ourselves subconsciously always trusting more blind than ever the steps taken, some forward and some backward. Nothing ever seems easy though as the plate fills up just when thinking it had cleared up. The Fabric of Life. The Journey, Spirit, my Friends, my Mother, I have many lids.

Flowers in the Desert-5 xxx

I reminisce often, the present can plant me here or take me back. It is an odd sensation to sometimes feel what was felt before perfectly knowing so much has changed. It is pushing North now that has renewed my energy becoming a bit stale here on this stage having so much prolonged our welcome I feel. As much as… 

Desert Flowers xxx

Flowers on Old Ore Road xxx

Spring has arrived in Big Bend. Flowers are blossoming everywhere more than ever due to the heavy rainfalls of times past. The brown dusty carpet has changed to spotted yellows where even my steps are careful as to not disturb the delicate patterns changing by the day. More colors are protruding, a canvas slowly being painted so delicately. It is an amazing uplifting sight. The packing of our gear has started, a bit more mental and on paper than physical trying as always to keep it simple for the miles to come. The temperatures have risen these past days as this time around we are trying to get used to the heat as such will open up more spaces we can reside within. I almost feel it as being a bad habit to move on when the forecast calls for over ninety degrees.

 Flowers on Old Ore Road (2) xxx

Desert Clouds-2 xxx

“Old Ore Road”, the northern bumpier section.

Stay well, keep up the Hope.
                                          Ara and Spirit

Desert Sunset xxx

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30 Responses to “The dreaded phone call. Texas.”

  1. Don McGilvray Says:

    Ara ~ My thoughts and prayers are with you and your Mother during this trying time. Be of stout heart, my friend. Your Mother seems to have had a full and interesting life to this point, and if you are at all like I am, you only wish for their life to end with dignity and grace. If her maker has deigned that this is the time to call her home, I pray that it will be easy for her, for you, and for the rest of the family.

  2. Ara & Spirit Says:

    Thank You Don. Your words help. It puts much in perspective. On with another Journey now. Ara and Spirit.

  3. Dean Says:

    Ara, so sorry to hear, I remember the many conversations with your mother while staying with us.

    I posted this in the Motorcyclist Cafe.


  4. mq01 Says:

    i’m sorry Ara. sending love light and prayers to you, your mother, family, and friends. 🙁 god speed…

  5. Doug smith Says:

    So sorry….I went through the same thing a couple years ago. Our thoughts are with you and yours.

  6. Fuzz Says:

    I’m very sorry to read this news, Ara. I wish your mother, you and the rest of your family peace. Take care…

  7. mark johnson Says:

    God Speed, friend.
    Mark and Bobbie

  8. heyduke50 Says:

    I love spring in Big Bend… it is as if new life springs forth from the old… At least your mom likely suffered very little, indeed the best way to depart this world… our thoughts are with you during this trying time…

  9. shadowmoss Says:

    You are in my thoughts.

  10. texascindy Says:

    So, so sorry to hear this. I had a feeling something was wrong not having seen any new posts here or FB or elsewhere. This is not easy for you. How could it be? You are in my thoughts and prayers, Ara. All you can really do is just be there. I wish I could do something to lighten your heart. Hugs, friend. Hope you can feel them. Cindy

  11. Dee Says:

    Ara, keep the warm memories in your heart while you go through this time. I send my prayers and thoughts to you and your family. Dee

  12. Pamela in Louisiana Says:

    Do what you must at this time, we’ll all be here awaiting your return.

  13. Denny Gibson Says:

    So very sorry to read this. You are in my thoughts.

  14. Randy Says:

    I’m sorry Ara, safe travels.

  15. Zelda Says:

    Dear Ara,

    As you go to your Mother’s side to comfort her, may you be comforted also, by our affection for you, your Mother, Spirit and your family that you have shared with us. God speed you to grant her wish to again feel your hand and see your face.

    Pam & Randy

  16. The Desert Scruff Says:

    So sorry, Ara, to hear about your mother. You are, it seems without a doubt, in the hearts of many.

  17. butterbean carpenter Says:

    Howdy Ara,

    Our prayers are with you and your family at this time.. You have shown a lot of strength of spirit in your travels and He will sustain you!!! Have a safe trip and we’ll be waiting for more of your experiences, when you return… Remember you have a lot of people ALL OVER THE WORLD, who are your friends and wish the best for you!!!

    butterbean carpenter/zimmermann

  18. scruffy Says:

    Sorry to hear this news Ara. Peace be upon you and your dear Mother~

  19. MsBelinda Says:

    My thoughts are with you and your mother during this difficult time.

    Be strong, be brave…she needs you right now.

  20. Queenie Says:

    I am so sorry to have missed this before now. You have so many friends and so much love with you on this journey. This is the way of it, no matter how it happens, whether on some expected, yet unexpected occurrence, or the wrenching away of them from us on our perceived schedule of things. Be safe and well, as you tell us all the time. You are not alone in this.

  21. Cissy Says:

    Ara, You are such a special soul that one can only assume that you were guided by a very special woman and I am sorry for the pain of you and your people. I know that you know that our life is so much more than the path we walk on this Earth but that can’t be much consolation to you right now. Go to your family knowing your have so many praying for you and beseeching our Maker to give grace to you all.

  22. Cheryl Says:

    I am so very sorry to hear the news about your beloved mother. Please rest in the happiness of the joy and love of your years together. My prayers and thoughts are with you and your mother…

  23. Jack Hettrick Says:

    My prayers are with you & your Mom, Ara. God bless you both.

  24. Kim Oslund Says:

    Our thoughts and prayers are with you my friend. So sorry to hear about your mother.

  25. Marilyn Elmore Says:

    Ara, I put off reading this for over a week. I think I knew it was unhappy news from the heading. I am finally ready to receive the news, so I opened the mail and read with great sadness the contents. As you know, I am caring for my Mom in her waning years, and I am saddened each day as I discover more and more of her has been lost somewhere in the previous day(s). I feel your emotional and physical pain as I read your words, now over a week old. I know what awaited you as you returned to your Mom’s bedside. The decisions and the heartbreak. You’ll know what to do, it’s all in the heart. Be strong, know you’re loved and supported in these days by the friends you’ve made here. Be well, Ara.

  26. Sven Peter Says:

    Dear Ara,
    Arabs say Maktub = it is written.
    And in my eyes our life is written long before we get born. That things will happen, they will happen, our only freedom is the attitude how we will accept the things destiny will face us with.
    Myself I came back from Germany yesterday morning with the hole family. My plan was to present my wife and my kids to my forster father who left us in 1983 and got last year diagnosticated a liver cancer. Destiny wanted that he had a brain stroke 1 1/2 weeks before the journey. I only was able to talk to him over the phone. Anyhow again he gave me a big lesson of attitude. “every second is a gift and backwards not even for to get impuls”.

    I sincerely wish the best to Your mother and You and may You both find the right attitude to face what comes up. Be grateful for all the love and lessons she grew you up with. You described her as a strong independent lady, now she deserves your help and assistence.
    Thomas and Sven Peter from Costa Rica

  27. Jennifer Says:


    When I saw those first words I knew it was your mother. I only know you through your beautifully written words but know that my heart is heavy for you. Life is precious. We will wait.

    Thinking of you, Spirit and your family.


  28. Tassie Devil Says:

    Dear Ara,
    Wishing you a safe journey.
    Your friend,
    John Quincy.

  29. Jeff and Sandra Says:

    Wishing you and your family the best of all possibilities.

  30. Fran Reisner Says:

    I think of you often Ara, but have not visited you here in awhile. So sorry to hear about your Mother.

    I’d still love to find a way to meet up on the road one day. I am traveling north through the Smoky Mountains and beyond before turning west, so will not be through Texas any time soon. Just wanted you to know you are in my thoughts.

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