Complex times… NM

Thursday, January 24th, 2019

“Man [Woman] is not born to solve the problem of the universe, but to find out what he/she has to do; and to restrain himself/herself within the limits of his/her comprehension.” 
~ Johann Wolfgang von Goethe ~

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      Photos of past years. Gum surgery meaning staying home!

Well, I find out that there is no one left to correspond with. Correspondence of Life, ideas bounced back and forth, in another word" “letters” which includes the effort of writing and reading. I understand. It is these days so much easier to blurb something, anything, even  the aspect of a delicious enticing cheeseburger, and lets not forget the bacon, on Facebook and the many other Social Media pages while only having to await for “likes” and those themselves will make everyone happy. What else can I say? as I continue my close relationship with this Journal, my bouncing board! Always agreeable and often misunderstood.

SUNSET D 

There is no doubt my mind wonders too much and asks too many questions while I am more than aware there will not be any answers. Some are satisfied with that concept, I rarely am. I should have these words painted on my wall “it is what it is”. It is so simple, so definite and so understandable. Is it? It is so hard for me to put my head down, accept those few words and step by step move on forward. I must have missed that last chapter in the book of Life explaining such. Or was it never published? We are all so different yet none of us are unique. There has to be a double of me somewhere out there understanding. The incoming words, meaning comments, are and have been such a help to me. I bow to their kindness and understanding. They melt my heart for the the fact that another being has taken the time and effort to try to hold me up. The greatest gifts I can ever receive I feel when I read other’s words.

TO FREDONIA C 

They admit their shoes worn are not the same as mine, of course they are not, and yet throw in words of compassion uplifting my present moments as I finally realize I have entered a new chapter of my Life. I must be slow! It has taken me 18 months to realize such. I suddenly see my Life instead of in years “in chapters”. The European birth and teenage chapter, the start and continuation of moving to the USA, the years of my profession, marriage, Lance, divorce from a wonderful woman while myself young and foolish working 10 days a week and 30 hour days [!], on the road with Spirit and finally I could call it the “finalé”… here, a home and a car and medical procedures galore… Regardless of past what I can call tragedies, I still feel that Karma has been on the flip side kind to me. I could have been right now homeless with more medical problems but I am not and that in itself is a fact to be grateful towards it all.

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My biggest regret has been not able to stay in touch over the years with the many that have morally supported and contacted us. It is an impossible task and I can only hope they forgive me as I don’t forget them. Can one have a Friend and only talk to them once a year? Yes, it is possible because I do have such Friends and when that time arrives when we exchange words it is as exactly where we left off. There is always a mutual understanding of such situation. We are so happy when we talk and get the news of the past year realizing also, gladly that is, that we made it another year and can only hope we make it for one more. We don’t wish for many more even if deep down that is the reality of the mind but we don’t want to push our luck! “It is what it is…”, “It will be what it will be…”. That is so plain and simple as I have mentioned it before.

sunset

Life has slowed down here. My home is full. There is barely just a bit of room left for maybe one more or two photos to hang. There are no needs left and I am way over the wants. Wants can be endless and thinking about them I can only come to the conclusion that they make Life only more complicated. I had two cars at one time. I would not today even if it was free. Too much to take care of. All is back to as much simplicity as possible. I have clothing galore and even when as the other day I see a nice jacket on sale I would like to wear I ask myself why? No need for it. It is the same for everything else. I guess when I moved here I went through a “being a consumer phase” not having anything and that is now over. The wants can be endless and spending money on teeth is for sure not as attractive but more necessary than ever as that in itself is a hefty bill. Even with dental insurance.

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It is so odd that one can change within the changes. I have I think that I have finally found my own lane to ride on and the exits have become rare. I am experiencing a true indoor kind of winter while looking forward to Spring and warmer temperatures. I still go up the mountains especially to visit some Friends, my only Friends in this part of the world [!] who are building a beautiful house and it is cold up there with roads covered with snow or mud when the temperatures go up a bit during the day. The sceneries are like postcards and I feel so fortunate being so close to such a paradise and yet, by the end of the day, I am so ready to… come home! What a change. As much as I am planning some camping in Utah in the Spring, I love my sofa, my own bed and my own shower which all are still the image of luxuries to me. Comfy! Must be the right time of my Life for such. If only Spirit could have still been laying at my feet…

duo balloons 

Stay well,
               Ara and Spirit [R.I.P. 04~04~2018]  

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18 Responses to “Complex times… NM”

  1. Barney Ward Says:

    AHH Yes the continuous effort at remaining in a simple life. I have all and more that is needed to be comfortable. So once again I am in the process of bringing the MORE back down to plenty. For me too much stuff gets in the way of a better way of life. Simple without a lot of stuff to get in the way of living is better for me. Best wishes to you Ara in this new year of opportunities to enjoy living.

  2. Charlie Says:

    Good to hear from you again, I hope you get better soon!
    For me friend has a different flavor than for others a friend is generally closer than family in fact you could say they are family you choose or choose you. Some of them you loose contact with then out of the blue boom there they are and things continue with out skipping a beat. There is an old joke that a friend is somebody who will come and post your bail at 3 am, a good friend will be in the cell with you saying “She sure didn’t look like a cop to me either!”, but a best friend will help you hide the body!

  3. Nicky Says:

    Perhaps for those that think and travel on just one level “it is what it is” may be reality as they know it. Bringing eternity, and our part in it, into the picture, I do not see the later chapters of our current lives as being the finale. Even those who see death as the end of our existence should at least comprehend that our stories will go on impacting the lives of others when we are no longer here. My point is that to me any day and what it holds is only part of “what is”… Ara, I think you are aware of more than a lot of other people are, and that is why it is hard for you to accept the phrase “it is what it is” as being the entirety of truth.

    Fortunately, our changing within the changes indicates growth, we think more profound and wise thoughts, our experiences have given us more understanding and make being kind come more naturally. Sometimes we are aware of that, like when discover an idea or truth as an epiphany. Often, though, we change in such small increments it happens without our noticing anything different. It can be more easily seen when we study each other, or watch a plant sprouting new leaves and more far reaching roots…

    The walls and floor space in a small home are easily filled, and taking care of our bodies can be expensive, so I can see why you no longer feel the need for more “things”. I wonder though, if you might enjoy an inexpensive addition to your list of activities and home furnishings. As a chef you might use any culinary herbs you grew from seeds , either grown inside your house or in a small greenhouse within your carport. I recently purchased some frames for pictures from Walmart’s online website then picked them up at their local store. Currently on their website they are selling sets of herb seeds, and kits to put together green houses, too. I may be getting those soon myself. There’s something so wonderful about seeing a plant grow, and noticing the scent of each one as I enter a room. A bit like getting to know a person, appreciating their nuances, changes and essence

  4. Betty Says:

    Hello Ara,

    I’ve read your blog off and on for years, starting when we were full-time RVers. Recently I’ve become a regular reader. We experienced the loss of our fur-child in 2016, our canine companion for those 7 years on the road. After that, the RV life just, well, it just wasn’t the same. Sold our rig and settled in a 55+ community in northern MN. Thank you for sharing yourself and, indeed, providing an oasis of the soul in this increasingly crazy world. Peace and light …

  5. judith Says:

    As usual, beautiful photographs…and I am glad to hear you are feeling some peace. Not always striving for something…..but enjoying greatly what is at hand. (I’m older than you,and think maybe that’s just a good part of getting old…finding delight and comfort in everyday life if one’s basic needs are being met.) I too wish Spirit could be there relaxed at your feet…..a relaxed dog or cat just seem to spread comfort around them.

  6. Ara & Spirit Says:

    Thank You Judith. Peace at this stage is of the utmost importance. I think…

  7. Ara & Spirit Says:

    Where are you in northern NM? I have not yet camped without Spirit and I know too well it is not ever going to be the same as Spring comes around. We can only be agreeable with what Life throws at us and acceptance is a big part of it. Thanks.

  8. Ara & Spirit Says:

    “That” acceptance is indeed hard and at times painful. I don’t want to tell you about my recent lower gum complete surgery! Soup and more soup… I have thought about growing some herbs to cook with, yes, but I am still hanging on to the thought, the dream [?] that I will be on the road more time than I will be here. Will see what this Spring decides… I have an Orchid a Friend gifted me a few months ago. Never knew I had a green thumb as after the flowers died I took good care of it and today actually is a new flower blossoming! A full cycle… Thank You always for writing and support. You make a difference. Ara

  9. Ara & Spirit Says:

    Thank You Barney… Simpler is so much nicer!

  10. Ara & Spirit Says:

    That is indeed a good one! Why do you think I have your number on speed dial?…

  11. Denny Gibson Says:

    I’ve long thought that my life was divided into chapters marked by changes in school, jobs, marriage, or some other major aspect. For me, these course changes seem to come at VERY approximately ten year intervals. My chapters aren’t as distinct from one another as yours, but they do seem to help some in trying to understand what is really a single continuous story.

  12. Ara & Spirit Says:

    A continuous story with different episodes sometimes so totally unrelated… A turn here or a turn there!

  13. Carolyn Says:

    Yes, only If.

  14. Kevin Kaatz Says:

    Yes Sir….Thank You for making your thoughts available…!!!

  15. Nicky Says:

    Hopefully you have been staying well, Ara. You posted this page in your journal quite a while ago, and you have often been in my thoughts since then.

  16. Mary McNutt Says:

    Just found this as I ran across small camper/motor homes. Very interesting reading the thoughts from other people. I think having a simple life would be
    good. Too much stuff can be a real problem. Got to do something about it.
    Thank you for sharing your thoughts.
    Sincerely,
    The hat lady

  17. Ara & Spirit Says:

    Hi Mary… Anything one does not use within a year has to go!!!

  18. Ara & Spirit Says:

    Thank You Nicky. Medical procedures are finally [for now!] behind me. 25lbs lighter which will help the spine and Spring is right around the corner… Things are, yes, looking up. Hope all is also well with you. Ara

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