"We are, each of us angels with only one wing; and we can only fly by embracing one another." ~ Luciano de Crescenzo ~
It is here, it is there, it is what I seek for. I don’t know if others do. I don’t know what they call it, how they go about it. I only know about my own stage and slowly about, yes, a few others also, my close Friends that dare opening up to me and vice versa. I call it "IT" because of this book that I finished not long ago, and one of the characters is what he called it. It is so huge I cannot have a simple definition for "IT". I have only tasted morsels of it, in links it has not made a continuous presence in my Life, yet, and I don’t know if it ever will, but oh! so much worth seeking for. This is just my own take, the thoughts are not blurred, but the puzzle has yet to have all the pieces present. Will it ever while in my Lifetime or is it the Prize unknown in it’s form, shape, mind and soul that awaits for me.
This stage is so much as a rainbow I am traversing contemplating, experiencing, thirsty of all it’s colors sometimes present and sometimes not It is not seeking nirvana, it is not physical, not only mental, it is truly "all", it is "IT". It is when the senses are being reflected on a constant amazement of the incessant beauty surrounding us. It is the joining of the hearts when near a good Friend. They are the skies so filled with stars glaring at me in the middle of the night. It is the warmth of the sunrise slowly bathing my body throughout and the sunset to remind of some rest needed for the night. It is the open road, it is good weather, bad weather, good music and conversations, beautiful to the beholder photos unlocking the past memories or unraveling what yet we have not seen. The list is so long as it slowly fills that space inside me as exchanging an aura taking place.
It is living with the ups and downs absorbing them all as equal moments of Life as to not feel tight or loose but always on an equal keel. Just thinking about thinking to look for “IT” in itself can be comforting, as it’s notion I can only compare it floating through Life with such a greater positive attitude and all it’s ramifications so incredibly sustaining to one’s well being.
I am so confused however as reading lately the so much despair that also surrounds us. Daily, the thousands of dogs of all breeds abused and in need of rescue, more of every kind of other animals close to us. I read an e mail forwarded to me by a Friend of a Friend, a young Lady Nurse volunteering in Haiti. It is a true letter, it is not made up. I cannot even post her words or forward them to Friends as the horror of the conditions are so indescribable, and yet she does. I was in tears reading, I just cannot understand once more Life’s faith toward us Humans. How can I be looking for "IT" when… How can anyone? This is the total obscure part of it all. This is when it all becomes cluttered and so non understandable.
Everyone today will go one about their own path, as I will myself. We will smile, many will laugh, another day in the Life of millions. But not too far from here thousands of children and adults will not even have a clean clothe to cover their stumps while infected lacking the much needed antibiotics and screaming with their lack of pain medication. I read of others as to why we even help while we are not helping our own children in our own country dying of hunger. How can anyone even have those thoughts, all is so unbalanced, so true. I am not political, but I am so perturbed. Help has been on the way and yet, how come it is not reaching it’s destination? How come those children and all are not resting peacefully with at least no human pain.
I have not found an answer within myself. Someone even told me not think about it. How can I not? How can anyone not. How can we be so advanced and yet so behind, how can anyone on Earth still suffers so much. Do we each remain in our little box and stare at our little walls to not let any “bad images” penetrate our mind? I have no answer, not even to myself as so often I feel as such a hypocrite forgetting only for an instant others despairs. Such was the case yesterday going for a ride, an excursion. At first I wanted to go camping at the Chinati Hot Springs. Decided then to only go on for the day. Reaching Marfa, one of my tires did not look so good to handle the sharp rocks on Pinto Canyon and that idea also went on the wayside.
I decided to take it easy and take the paved road to Presidio, we would come back through River Road to Terlingua and then on up here, a big loop. Stop at the Ghost Town of Shafter (music in link) where we had not been in a couple years and see if anything had changed. I was bugged down all day by the above thoughts. Just could not let it go. If I only had an answer. Could it be “we are all doing what we can?”. Just does not seem enough… does it?
Till next time, you be well, always, it is our best choice.
Ara & Spirit
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