Falsehood has an infinity of combinations, but truth has only one mode of being – Jean Jacques Rousseau
While we are kind of… “pausing” with only local rides, oil changes, tire changes, cleaning layers of accumulated dust, prescriptions filled, making up room for new memories, you name it, I am feeling as a new portal is soon going to be crossed. I have started looking back at my own entries as one by one they are a testimony as to how far we have really gone. Many spaces that were foreign, many roads never experienced before, new Friends and acquaintances, some we will see again and some not, but with a bond that will always remain. I am so famished for more, I am truly getting so eager to roll those wheels and let myself get absorbed by it all. A few more days.
The physical end of it yet I thought at one time was becoming so minute. And now I realize that the body and the mind really can work together, must strive together as thoughts in a dark box will themselves stay shady. Mother Nature has always been my chaperon, she has fed my Soul, these past years my needy Soul. She has been the “truth”, it’s true definition. She has shown her dedication, her candor. She herself can be so fully trusted as “falsehood” does not belong in her dictionary. I have learned from her and still do, every day as she shows me a path unlike any other.
She is immortal, she is not civilized however, she does not possess the infinity of combinations we have. She is so beautiful even in her raging moments of despair when darkening her face, only to come back with her brighter colors and shapes. She is addicting and her vastness allows me to go forward always gently stepping on her delicate features she has taken so much time and effort to display. Her once familiar features always appear so different the second time around, the third time around or more. She constantly teases me with her own companions as she is the shepherd of the sunlight, darkness, rain, snow and everything else in between.
There is none like her. She raised me in the past, she baited and tormented me when times were so short, so never enough to taste her greatness. But today I have been adopted as I feel so free to wander, so slow and filled that my Soul can remain fulfilled from her aftertaste even when becoming at times immobile. Sometimes I wonder if I could ever go back… go back where? The land has become finally my Home, the dirt, the soil, the greens and the browns, all have become my mat. This is where I know I belong. There was no wrong decision when 900 days or so ago, my sweet other companion Spirit and I took on the first miles leaving it all behind. I just never knew there would be so much ahead of us, so much as I feel every day we have only just began.
This Sunset tonight, from dark gray to a show of colors never seen before are in sequence of time.
There is in reality no start and no finish on this Journey. There is only a forward flow of the mind we possess, I will never see the finish line, there is none, not in my Lifetime. I have just realized that every moment the completion of the experience is it in itself. When that day arrives, when that moment presents itself for me to be also taken away, I will know then that I have indeed seen it and felt it all. There is suddenly Peace in my moments, the past “combination’s” turmoil is vanishing. I am discovering a path that I can travel with much serenity as I also discovered to let go of so much when realizing that “yes”, I am merely an observer passing through.
We are so young, we are so fragile in company of Mother Nature. We are so complex, so thoughtful and at times so lost. We have so much tried, and as often as not, failed to even remain in harmony and truth with each other. We have thought we are “right” and they are ‘wrong”. We have given joy, we have dispensed sadness and misery when all we needed to do is furnish respect and Love, only observe that we are all so different, each of us, each mind and soul that blends us within the beauty that now surrounds me only known as that “one mode of being”.
Today was a cloudy day, windy, sign of changes ahead. Suddenly as I wrote these words the curtain rose and as a silent fanfare and fireworks, as thanking me for being her now companion, Mother Nature unveiled tonight what has to be the most beautiful dazzling show of a sunset ever experienced on The Oasis. For once, standing still, only pivoting on myself I could not stay quiet… I thanked her loudly as I knew this one was for us, I just knew it, I don’t believe in coincidences as we are leaving in just a few days.
It is Peace and Serenity that envelops me these days, these days of preparation for the days ahead. It is all Pure and White… it is all also filled with emotions more than ever, speechless sensitiveness toward Lance from whom I will always feel his sacrifice has enabled me to fully feel today what I only fumbled on yesterday.
Twenty nine months of Photography is finally in order on SmugMug… In “Your Favorites”, in “States”, some labeled “first year” and second year”, now also “Texas the third year”. Feel free to browse, you can even use the slide show mode and have fun. Merchandise is also available through SmugMug. If you like to order prints, all sizes are available as I store the originals myself considering the huge bandwidth needed to upload them on the Galleries.
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Ara & Spirit